On the Eve of my 34th Birthday

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Here I sit on the eve of my 34th Birthday…. What 34? I think someone messed up the math on that. Any who it is happening I will soon be rounding the bend to 40 (old people are 40, I’m not close to that age!) Apparently the dementia is starting… ok, ok where am I going with this post…. Birthday Resolutions (kind of like a make up for New Years)

Weight loss is always at the top of my goals and I would really like to get it out of the running and be done with it once and for all. My goal is to lose 100+ pounds in the next year, there I said it, it’s out in the world. My license still has the same weight on there from when I was 16 and I want it to be correct when I go to renew it!

For my birthday I bought myself a new scale and a new pair of walking shoes (I’m no runner and don’t plan on ever being one) Not sure what the plan is for this weight loss but I have a stack of workout DVD’s and my Fitbit. I would like to find a class to go to once a week since it sounds like my Zumba class won’t be back anytime soon 😦

Goals, I like goals and I’m a visual person so I have my Bloom Daily Planner: Vision Planner marked up with some mini goals and I created a spreadsheet to show me where I should be at to meat my goal by the deadline.

Along with this blog I am want to be more open on my instagram and post pictures, gasp! Doubt I will be posting any skin showing pictures right away but I will have them in my phone for when I am ready to make it public. I am always looking for people on weight loss journeys and it seems like they never post until they have lost the bulk of the weight and I want to document the whole journey so when I have those days that I struggle I have something to look back too.

It is out in the universe, now time to start working!!

Love Always … Tam

SW: 258 CW: 258 GW: 145

Just Keep Moving Forward…

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So it has been a few months since I was on here, New Year’s resolutions are still in the works…. my pop consumption has been cut in half, I did not complete my 200 miles in January- only got 3/4 of the way there- but I am still on the move to ONEderland. I’m actually losing weight! Which is what I want to talk about today, those pesky numbers on the scale. I know that the numbers on the scale don’t always matter, I get that, but when you have as much weight to lose as me- they have to move down.

Last year I adapted the motto of “If you just keep moving forward, you will amaze yourself” and it is something I try and tell myself everyday. Oh you ate an entire sleeve of cookies…just keep moving forward, you haven’t been on the treadmill for a week, just keep moving forward….and that is what I have been doing and guess what, I have been amazed! I have been documenting my weight and measurements oh for about 14 years (I just found an old tablet that I used to write them down in, eek!) Last March I saw the highest number ever on the scale (one day I will include that number here) now I’m not sure if that was my highest weight ever because I stopped stepping on the scale for quite sometime, but I wrote that number down.

I wish that I could tell you what all happened in the next few months but I really don’t remember.  I do remember I started using my Fitbit more, I paid attention to my steps and tried to reach 10,000 steps a day. I would make a point to park a little further away, not to sit in front of the TV as early and even just get up from my desk and walk in place for a min or two-just to get in some steps and quite frankly so I didn’t have to work out to get them. I started stepping on the scale again and kept writing my numbers down. Towards the end of the summer I noticed my pants were loose, but I just figured that they had worn out their stretch and it was time for a new pair. Not that I had actually lost weight because all I had lost was a pound or two here and there. Funny thing is, is when I looked back to that number I had written down back in March those pounds added up to 20 pounds lost! What!? I lost 20lbs and didn’t gain it…this was a new concept to me.

So here we are a year from when I recorded my highest weight of all times and the scale didn’t scare me when I stepped on it. Even though that number is high I can see that a year ago I weighed 39lbs more then I do now and I am ok with the number I see today because I know that number is me moving towards ONEderland!

I always had the mind set that to really lose weight I had to do it in a year, why I’m not sure and before I would look at a 39lb loss in a year as a failure because I could’ve lost so much more. Now I look at that number, give it a nod and just keep moving forward.

 

Love Always … Tam

Cancelled My Gym Membership!

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So I sent in my cancelation for my gym membership this week. I joined the gym in October (or so) when my Zumba lady had to quit teaching classes at a near by school. I had been attending her classes on & off for the last 7 years and loved them! Since it looked like she was not going to be starting up classes anytime soon I decided to join a local gym, they also had Zumba and a few other group classes. But there classes just weren’t the same and I found it harder to make it to these classes, so I decided to cancel my membership.

I’m taking this stuff old school now with at home Workout DVD’s! Jumped on good old Amazon last night and ordered myself some walking themed workouts. I have been really into my Fitbit so I decided to start out with ones that will help up  my step game 🙂 The two I decided on are
Jessica Smith: Burn Fat & Have Fun

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Dance That Walk

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I have decided that I will never be on of those who love to work out and lift heavy weights. I’m just trying to make it tolerable and something I look forward to everyday. Now the wait for them to come in the mail!!!

Love Always … Tam

4th of July Vacation

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Just got back from vacation, it was actually good and relaxing. I don’t normally like to go away from home for long periods of time, especially with kids and expect it to be relaxing. But when you have grandma and grandpa there to help and they can pretty much entertain themselves for 8 hours in the water, it can be pretty relaxing. Except the kids deceided they wanted to tube… behind the boat…. just the two of them!! I thought I was going to have a heart attack!!!

We went on our annual canoe trip down the Namekogen, this year we opted for a shorter, easier trip and it was just about perfect. Not much paddling was done, you got to enjoy mothing nature, we got out to swim a few places and a snake swam right through us!!! A SNAKE!! I almost peed my pants. That snake just swam through all of us while we here standing in the water like he owned the place. That is until I sceamed and he swam back up river, through the rest of our group and sat on the shore until we left.

No pictures from the river, I leave my phone at home. The boys caught this at the lake

This year we deceid to stay the whole week (plus two weekends, thats 9 days!) so that we would go to the Rodeo Thursday night. At first Viv did not want to go, even though we talked about it for weeks leading up. Then 5 min after we got there she decided she want to come every year. The Budweiser Clydesdales were there and for me that was worth it, those horses are beautiful and gigantic! The first rider out gashed his head into a pole right in front of us, ouch, good thing my kids were too into their cotton candy to even notice.

Food & Drink wise my week was so, so. My mother in-law is a pretty health consious lady and she planned most of the meals, so we had our veggies. The thing that really set me back was the drinking, oh and smores 🙂 I gained some weight back, but not all of it. The important part is that I enjoyed my vaction.

Love Always … Tam

What’s Up?

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What’s Up, besides my weight that is….How can you want something so bad, but yet you can’t control yourself to get it?  Yesterday as we were watching TV a commercial came on for one of those media-spas that “get rid of your body fat in just one day” Vivian turns and looks at me and says “mom why don’t you do that?” I told her because it doesn’t just work like that and it cost lots of money. Bless her heart that g12513857_10208527355720936_8188607754644347526_oirl looks at me and says in all seriousness “I know, I can give you all the money in my piggy bank for it” That right there should have broke my heart in two, made me hop up and get on that treadmill, instead I just sat in my chair and curled up in my blanket a little longer. I know that she is getting older and starting to notice more that mommy has a “big booty butt” (as we call it) and a big belly and I cringe at the day that she will be embarrassed by me because her mommy is fat. I mean I am going to embarrass through out the years, but I don’t want it to be because of my weight.

Last night my mom called me to come over to have a late night “business meeting” in the hot tub. I went over, we sat in that hut tub for 2 hours!! The night was perfect with a full moon, no wind and it was almost 30 degrees out! We talked about work and started getting excited for our upcoming season of senior pictures and our new class of spokesMODELS, we talked about all the new cool stuff coming into the Boutique for the next sale (all I can say is think Joanne Gaines!) and of course we talked about our weight. How we still haven’t lost anything over the winter, how 4th of July will be here before we know it and how this year was going it be different! Man I so want it to be different, I want to skinny (I am using this term loosely because I know it isn’t all about size), I want to go and pick out a cute outfit for the 4th and not just see what there is in my size and looks decent.

Rant over, thanks for listening.

Love Always … Tam

So I Had a Craving…

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True story, this how my Saturday morning went, kind of ashamed but it is a daily struggle that I go through.

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Disclaimer: Not my picture, I found it on Pinterest. 

So I had a craving for something sweet and I had the itch to bake. I love to bake. Back in high school it would be nothing for me to bake banana bread, banana cream pie and a cheese cake all in one night.  This is what happened with my craving:

I wasn’t going to leave the house so I had to find something to bake with what I had on hand. Ohhhh, I have brownie mix, the search for brownie ______ was on.

After an extensive search on Pinterest I decided on Browine Batter Frosting and it was made.

Hmmmm I still have half the bag of brownie mix left, I should just mix it up and bake it, so I did. Hmmm, that is a lot of chocolate and it could really use something else, like a caramel something else.

Now the search is on for a homemade caramel sauce. I could find lots of receipes but…I had no heavy cream 😦 Wait, what is this that I see… A receipe that replaces heavy cream with coconut milk! I have coconut milk! Caramel sauce is made.

Holes poked in brownies and caramel is poured over, let is cool and top it off with the frosting. Mmmmm, I can’t wait for the kids to take a nap so I can devour the whole pan myself. For now I will just take a forkful or two…

Hmmmm it, taste good, but not satisfying. Maybe another forkful, hmmmm, yup still not quite doing it. One more forkful, yup that’s it, my stomach hurts! You know what would taste good veggie juice. What?? Veggie juice? Did I really just think that, what is going on with me? I would rather have veggie juice then a brownie.

Moral of the story, trust the process. I have been having my Shakeology everyday, eating healthier (for the most part) and just recently started drinking veggie juice.  Now I would prefer to have veggies over a brownie, I never thought that day would come.

Love Always … Tam

Ps. After I realized I wanted veggies instead of brownies I tossed the whole pan in the trash and made some veggie juice. Moving Forward.

Obligatory New Years Post

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Obligatory New Years PostSo here it is, my New Years post, the one that will (hopefully) define how I will be in the new year. That I promise to better myself and lose those extra 10 (or 100) pounds. Will this be the year I will actually stick to my resolution?

This year’s resolution will be a little different then years past. Instead of just resolving to just lose weight (which is still a big part for me) I have decided that… My resolution this year is…. To do the best for me and keep moving forward. Meaning, when prompted at a situation I will ask myself “is this the best for me?” Is it best for me to get up and work out or sleep in? That answer will most always be to get out of bed! Is it best for me to eat pizza tonight with my family or go for a healthier alternative? This one is where I will change my way of thought… At that moment is the family time more important then what I eat… And sometimes Pizza will win. This then leads me to the next part of my resolution, to keep moving forward, if I chose to have pizza that night, fine, it’s done and move forward. No feeling guilty about eating it, no taking a few days off from healthy eating, just move on.

Happy New Year

I also have few other goals for 2016, Double my income with Beachbody, Pay off my last student loan…. If you know me I love a good old fashion planner, the kind you write in with a pen and has nothing to do with your smart phone. I found a bloom Vision Planner and I love it! Besides your normal planner stuff it has, your goals for the month and then how are you going to make those goals happen. That is the part I really like, actually having to write down how are you going to achieve these goals.

Plans in place, I have already stuck to two of my goals today (cleaning out the pantry and blogging at least 1x a week) but I missed out on one (Shakeology daily) and I’m ok with it, moving forward, tomorrow’s a new day.

Love Always … Tam