Here I sit on the eve of my 34th Birthday…. What 34? I think someone messed up the math on that. Any who it is happening I will soon be rounding the bend to 40 (old people are 40, I’m not close to that age!) Apparently the dementia is starting… ok, ok where am I going with this post…. Birthday Resolutions (kind of like a make up for New Years)
Weight loss is always at the top of my goals and I would really like to get it out of the running and be done with it once and for all. My goal is to lose 100+ pounds in the next year, there I said it, it’s out in the world. My license still has the same weight on there from when I was 16 and I want it to be correct when I go to renew it!
For my birthday I bought myself a new scale and a new pair of walking shoes (I’m no runner and don’t plan on ever being one) Not sure what the plan is for this weight loss but I have a stack of workout DVD’s and my Fitbit. I would like to find a class to go to once a week since it sounds like my Zumba class won’t be back anytime soon 😦
Goals, I like goals and I’m a visual person so I have my Bloom Daily Planner: Vision Planner marked up with some mini goals and I created a spreadsheet to show me where I should be at to meat my goal by the deadline.
Along with this blog I am want to be more open on my instagram and post pictures, gasp! Doubt I will be posting any skin showing pictures right away but I will have them in my phone for when I am ready to make it public. I am always looking for people on weight loss journeys and it seems like they never post until they have lost the bulk of the weight and I want to document the whole journey so when I have those days that I struggle I have something to look back too.
It is out in the universe, now time to start working!!
So I sent in my cancelation for my gym membership this week. I joined the gym in October (or so) when my Zumba lady had to quit teaching classes at a near by school. I had been attending her classes on & off for the last 7 years and loved them! Since it looked like she was not going to be starting up classes anytime soon I decided to join a local gym, they also had Zumba and a few other group classes. But there classes just weren’t the same and I found it harder to make it to these classes, so I decided to cancel my membership.
I’m taking this stuff old school now with at home Workout DVD’s! Jumped on good old Amazon last night and ordered myself some walking themed workouts. I have been really into my Fitbit so I decided to start out with ones that will help up my step game 🙂 The two I decided on are Jessica Smith: Burn Fat & Have Fun
I have decided that I will never be on of those who love to work out and lift heavy weights. I’m just trying to make it tolerable and something I look forward to everyday. Now the wait for them to come in the mail!!!
Just got back from vacation, it was actually good and relaxing. I don’t normally like to go away from home for long periods of time, especially with kids and expect it to be relaxing. But when you have grandma and grandpa there to help and they can pretty much entertain themselves for 8 hours in the water, it can be pretty relaxing. Except the kids deceided they wanted to tube… behind the boat…. just the two of them!! I thought I was going to have a heart attack!!!
We went on our annual canoe trip down the Namekogen, this year we opted for a shorter, easier trip and it was just about perfect. Not much paddling was done, you got to enjoy mothing nature, we got out to swim a few places and a snake swam right through us!!! A SNAKE!! I almost peed my pants. That snake just swam through all of us while we here standing in the water like he owned the place. That is until I sceamed and he swam back up river, through the rest of our group and sat on the shore until we left.
No pictures from the river, I leave my phone at home. The boys caught this at the lake
This year we deceid to stay the whole week (plus two weekends, thats 9 days!) so that we would go to the Rodeo Thursday night. At first Viv did not want to go, even though we talked about it for weeks leading up. Then 5 min after we got there she decided she want to come every year. The Budweiser Clydesdales were there and for me that was worth it, those horses are beautiful and gigantic! The first rider out gashed his head into a pole right in front of us, ouch, good thing my kids were too into their cotton candy to even notice.
Food & Drink wise my week was so, so. My mother in-law is a pretty health consious lady and she planned most of the meals, so we had our veggies. The thing that really set me back was the drinking, oh and smores 🙂 I gained some weight back, but not all of it. The important part is that I enjoyed my vaction.
What’s Up, besides my weight that is….How can you want something so bad, but yet you can’t control yourself to get it? Yesterday as we were watching TV a commercial came on for one of those media-spas that “get rid of your body fat in just one day” Vivian turns and looks at me and says “mom why don’t you do that?” I told her because it doesn’t just work like that and it cost lots of money. Bless her heart that girl looks at me and says in all seriousness “I know, I can give you all the money in my piggy bank for it” That right there should have broke my heart in two, made me hop up and get on that treadmill, instead I just sat in my chair and curled up in my blanket a little longer. I know that she is getting older and starting to notice more that mommy has a “big booty butt” (as we call it) and a big belly and I cringe at the day that she will be embarrassed by me because her mommy is fat. I mean I am going to embarrass through out the years, but I don’t want it to be because of my weight.
Last night my mom called me to come over to have a late night “business meeting” in the hot tub. I went over, we sat in that hut tub for 2 hours!! The night was perfect with a full moon, no wind and it was almost 30 degrees out! We talked about work and started getting excited for our upcoming season of senior pictures and our new class of spokesMODELS, we talked about all the new cool stuff coming into the Boutique for the next sale (all I can say is think Joanne Gaines!) and of course we talked about our weight. How we still haven’t lost anything over the winter, how 4th of July will be here before we know it and how this year was going it be different! Man I so want it to be different, I want to skinny (I am using this term loosely because I know it isn’t all about size), I want to go and pick out a cute outfit for the 4th and not just see what there is in my size and looks decent.
I know that this is long overdue and I apologize. I had it all written out and went to go save it and lost it all!!! I’m sorry to report that this post won’t be as witty as the first one I wrote, it was pretty good.
My first thoughts that come to mind when I hear “3 Day Refresh (Cleanse)” is 1) I’m going to starve!!! and 2) I’m going to sh!t my pants. I am happy to report that neither of those happened during my 3 days.
You start out your day with your Shakeology, still get 2 snacks, lunch (Shake) and a meal for dinner. Oh and there is this digestive drink too…. I can’t say I loved it, but I did’t hate it, but I reccomend drinking it ice cold and really fast….. Same with you lunch time shake, ice cold.
For your snacks and dinner I just went with raw veggies most of the time, I prefer my veggies raw and they are fast and easy. I will admit that I did have a moment of ” I can’t do this, I’m going to starve and ate a few 21 Day Fix approved items. Of course after my week moments I realized I wasn’t going to starve to death and regretted my decision.
Nevertheless the scale did move in the right direction at the end of my 3 days….drum roll please…. I lost a total of 4.8lbs is 3 days and I didn’t starve myself either! Funny all those years I thought not eating was the way to lose weight.
So would I do it again, Yes, perhaps another after the new year.
Oh and Happy (Late) Halloween from the Purple Minion! Yup thats my real hair!! Sad it only lasted the night, I was really digging the purple.
I haven’t been blogging much lately because I feel like I don’t have much to share with you. The numbers on the scale haven’t been moving much, I know that is a direct effect of how much effort I have been putting into my eating and working out. Then I had a talk with one of my coaches the other day and she told me that even though I don’t think I have story to share, I do. It doesn’t matter that the numbers on the scale aren’t moving or that I don’t think people will want to follow a girl who has 100+ pounds to lose on how to live a healthy life style, it is my story. There are people out there who will go through that same struggles and that by sharing my story they too might be motivated to keep moving forward.
So here it is… The last couple weeks I have not been sticking to my 21 Day Fix eating plan, some days I do some and some days I convince myself it’s ok to stop at McDonalds for breakfast. My workouts have improved slightly. I completed the first day 21 Day Fix workout and could not walk for 4 days, I hurt so bad! The workout was not that hard and it’s only 30 min, I am just that out of shape, I have not worked out in over a year, or longer. For now I have decided walking on the treadmill is right for me.
I know how important eating right and working out (not just walking) is to my weight loss, I can tell you when to eat, what to eat, how much to eat, but what I can’t tell you how to do is break that mental block inside your head. The one that says you don’t have to workout today, or you can have the pop or you don’t need to pack your food for the day. This physical change is just as much a mental change
I found this picture this week and I think fits perfectly to my story. I have started over so many times, it is time to just keep moving forward.